May God bless this family and hold them close. / Monica Davis~mom To ^i^ RJ Davis ~brutally Murdered At Age 18 In 2004 Read >>
May God bless this family and hold them close. / Monica Davis~mom To ^i^ RJ Davis ~brutally Murdered At Age 18 In 2004
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the killer of your Billy Paul rots in hell for what has been done to your precious son and to his loving family. My heart is with you, my son RJ was murdered also, he had just turned 18. I will keep you in my heart and prayers. I pray justice is served. Love and hugs to you.
Angel Wisdom / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love U. (Grieving With You )Read >>
Angel Wisdom / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love U. (Grieving With You ) Remember that the angels work through synchronicity and that if we remain open, not closed, to all possibilities, we may receive their messages of insight, love, and hope through virtually any channel of earthly communication. All we have to do is keep on watching and listening.
-Terry Lynn Taylor and Mary Beth Crain, "Angel Wisdom"
My heart and prayers are with you as we traverse all the emotions through our stages of Grief! We are jealous of the conversations our children now have while sitting at the feet of God! We have blood in our eye for the Murderers of our precious Beautiful children who did not deserve this horrible fate. Peace, prayers, hugs, love, and blessings to you and your beautiful family as you mourn 7 grieve for your precious son, ((Angel BP))!
Always, Shaye, Mack's Mom Forever (brutally murdered at 17) 10/29/86~05/24/04 http://www.kenneth-creamer.memory-of.com Close
Billy~((Billy Paul)), I am soo sorry for the loss of your son. You can put this on your About page if you want. Just go to glittermaker.com if you want a different style writing & size or color. Just right click to copy the writing and put it on your About page for Billy Paul. If you see something on Mack's site, just right click it for copy or save picture as..then paste it where you need it. I don't mind sharing with you. My heart and prayers are with you as you grieve for your dear sweet beautiful child in Heaven. Always, Shaye, Mack's Mom Forever (brutally murdered at 17) 10/29/86~05/24/04 http://www.kenneth-creamer.memory.ofClose
Belated Father's Day Blessings! ((Billy~Billy Paul)) / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love YOU! (Grieving With You~^i^ )Read >>
Belated Father's Day Blessings! ((Billy~Billy Paul)) / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love YOU! (Grieving With You~^i^ )
FATHER'S DAY REMEMBRANCE Sometimes
Sometimes... Dad is of the old school and taught that "men don't cry" or "men don't show their emotions", or they might lose face.
Sometimes... Dad is a "walk away joe", because he did not want to be a dad anymore, or changed his mind about being a dad in the 1st place.
Sometimes... Dad is taught to believe that if he shows any emotion, he will be considered weak instead of strong.
Sometimes... The pain & grief is so over-whelming that Dad sees maybe he was wrong.
Sometimes... The heart cannot bear the stress & duress.. You lose your will, zeal, zest, and passion...
Sometimes... When you lose your 1st son to heinous murder 13 years ago and then lose your youngest son in the same fashion..
Sometimes... You lose your mind...then your health...then your life...
Sometimes... Dad is not strong enough for the struggle and strife.
Sometimes... There are no words to speak..as some Dads are left speechless... @ 2006 Shaye B Creamer, In Loving Memory to KJB, Mack's Dad (07/23/05)
Peace, Prayers, & Blessings to you ((Billy~Billy Paul)) / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love U! (Grieving with YOU! )Read >>
Peace, Prayers, & Blessings to you ((Billy~Billy Paul)) / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love U! (Grieving with YOU! )
Dear Billy, ((Billy Paul)) .... remember the joys and memories with your beautiful Son..he is at peace! Justice will be served...if not through the judicial system then through God...HE will NOT let this go unattended to...Just as he gets angry and creates a mess...HE IS ALSO REALLY GOOD AT CLEANING THEM UP....NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TELL US HOW WE SHOULD GRIEVE~They do not live in my nightmare, my Hell, I will take as long as I need ...even if it means just talking to these Heaven bound children....They do talk to me... I hear Mack on the phone.....that is all the #'s that come up 000-000-0000 on the ID or when you do a call back or just hear a part of a song in a cell call..your baby is communicating with you!!! Mack brings his little "ethereal light being self" up in here before daylight clapping and laughing and lighting up my room..he says, "Mom you are so cool. You are so good. " I C ? u do! " ~ this is how one of his messages came out...they do not come in words like we read...but in the sounds of..and letters Mack travels (vibrates at a really high degree pitch~ but he always comes through ~ even visualizes. I feel when he rubs my arm & kisses my cheek and pats my hair.......I LOVE MY SON & MISS HIM SOOOOO MUCH!!!! He is sooo smart and beautiful and really it doesn't matter who is at fault ....OUR children did NOT deserve this!!!! They were entitled to a long happy prosperous life....Now we have only echoes of laughter, traces of memories, and rembrances of joy of our precious boys to carry us through ...sometimes if you listen..in a crowd..YOU will Hear your Angel's voice...he is always Near you... For 3 days now he has been calling me...he is really excited!!!!!~ HE blows light bulbs when he gets excited or flashes the lights off and on....look at the deatils around you...your baby is there in the details...just like God is in the details... Keeping you forever in my heart and prayers..I am hear for you anytime you need to talk..just drop a post in the email..it doesn't have to go throu the channels...I read but do not post that often..I looked for an answer to a prayer to help me thorugh my grief and found it in the GP..It is through the readings i have learned to come to a quasi acceptance of..he's not coming home... but I'm still sad...& grief stricken...I LOVE & MISS MY SON!!!!! Peace, hugs, prayers, Blessings. Always, Shaye, Mack's Mom (brutally murdered at 17) 10/29/86~05/24/04 http://www.kenneth-creamer.memory-ofClose
God Loves You! ~ Love In Action ! / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love You (^i^ In Heaven )Read >>
God Loves You! ~ Love In Action ! / Shaye Creamer (GP) ^i^Mack's Mom~Love You (^i^ In Heaven )
"Not all are called to personal labor in foreign fields, but all can do something by their prayers..."6T 29
Peace, prayers, hugs, and blessings as you grieve for your beautiful ^i^ In Heaven ((Billy~Billy Paul)). Will keep you and your beautiful family always in my thoughts and prayers. Always, Shaye Mack's Mom Forever (brutally murdered at 17) http://www.kenneth-creamer.memory-of.comClose
Miss you Bubba / Daddy (Dad)
As you know Billy I get so down when I think of You Son I have been avoiding coming here and I know I am wrong because this is a celebration of your life not about my grief. But Bubba it is there and I am trying to deal with it but sometimes my anger at the judical system and the jerk at the DAS office just keep it coming. But Son I will deal with it and we will prevail. It is in Gods Hands and He is the ultimate.Until Daddy comes to see you Son Always in My heart mind and soul. I love you Son , Dad Close
Angel Billy / Connie (none)
To Angel Billy Paul - your story touched my heart. Such a beautiful young man taken too soon by a coward. Watch over your family up in heaven and give them the strength to go on without you.
I think you and Sammy would have had alot in common as there are alot of similarities in the kind of friend and son you were.
so for graduation my Aunt Rhonda gave me a journal. Probably something that means more to me than most anything. But anyways..this was my first entry in it..
this pain I hide inside of me...I hope that no one ever feels. But sadly I know they do. This pain I have so deep...that I hide from the world...except for my closest friends when I have a break down. This pain inside that I hide....eats me alive and no one can see. This pain I have inside made a whole in my heart. This pain I feel inside I dont think anyone can quite understand. Sometimes it disappears for awhile...it's always there but sometimes it fades back. Sometimes it takes me over. Somtimes I feel alone like no one understands...even though they do. I hide it from most people because I try to tell myself I have come to peace with it...but deep inside...it DOES eat me alive. This pain inside of me is so strong that it pulls the tears from my eyes and makes them heavy and dark. It makes my tears keep coming even when I try to make them stop. This pain inside of me...shows when I get scared...or hurt. This pain inside of me...makes me weak when I want or have to be strong. This pain inside of me is so strong that sometimes I have to fall to the floor. This pain inside of me makes me feel like I'm missing something. This pain inside of me has made me a stronger person...but has made life real to me. Though I can talk about it...this pain inside of me is unbearable. This pain in me....comes out when things remind me of it. This pain in me will never leave. and I fear. may happen again. I could not handle it. This pain in me...makes me feel shameful. This pain in me...wont leave...I can't let it go. This pain in me...wont let me say my final goodbye. This pain in me...makes me physically hurt. This pain in me....will never be fixed. This pain in me...lives in other people too. This pain in me...makes me sit on the floor and stare at the wall until it goes away. This pain in me...makes me cry over something silly and pointless. This pain in me makes me worry constantly. Though I know this pain can get WAY worse....it's extremly bad. This pain in me...I hide from my family and most friends. This pain in me...hurts when someone calls me the wrong name. This pain in me...makes me not be able to drive by where it was. This pain in me...makes me do double takes when I see someone to remind me of him. This pain in me...hurts because...I forget what it was like when he was around...or forget his smile or laugh. This pain....hurts. It's not a normal pain...it's...every emotion in one. I live my day to day in this pain and I'm slowly learning to cope with it...though some days are worse than others. Today is one of my bad days...where i have this HUGE knot in my throat...and tears feel my eyes. This pain...is my pain...that no one can change or make better. But God will heal me...in time.
Fathers day / Dad
This Fathers day is harder than the other 2 I have missed with you Billy. We are working on Nannies house and all my little nieces and nephews are there and your cousins. I am really enjoying it but the memories really flood me as On Nannies Wall ther are so many Pics. I am going to to dedicate this days work in BILLY PAUL 's memory and life as you are still with us and will never leave our sides . Ilove you Billy and you are on my mind and in my heart every moment of everyday. Ilove you Daddy Close
My Son / Dad (Daddy)
Tiffany brought up about Billy sleeping with his head against the window while driving, and now I can't remember a trip when Billy didn't fall asleep. It makes me feel good because He must have felt safe. And I know He is safe now in Gods hands. I was also looking at his pics and noticed his hands looked like mine. Just in the way we held them. and everyone who knows us they where made to lay brick and to hold Babies. I love you Son. Daddy Close
She did it!! / Aunt Nita (Aunt)
Billy.....your bobsey twin did it! LaShae graduated from High School. I cannot believe it. Just yesterday she was my baby girl running around, playing ball out in the back yard with you. You would be so proud of her. I know she, along with the rest of us, really missed you being there with our family as we celebrated her day. But I know you were sharing the celebration with Jesus, watching down on her. But there was an empty spot at our family get-together that will always be there and no one else can ever fill. We missed your sweet hugs. You were with every one of us in our hearts. Watch over her as she goes out in this world and makes plans for her future. As she goes to college and whatever else her future holds. She loves you and misses you so much, and so do I!! Close
I had a dream and Billy asked me if I would speak to him more often and it was so real and unreal at the same time but I know billy is looking out for us and in all his family and friends hearts and souls he is forever with us and has never left . as time goes on the pain and hurt doesnt get any better it just gets tolerable.Ilove you son and you are forever in my heart. Daddy
You were so full of life, Always smiling and carefree, Life loved you being a part of it, And I loved you being a part of me.
You could make anyone laugh, If they were having a bad day, No matter how sad I was, You could take the hurt away. Nothing could every stop you, Or even make you fall, You were ready to take on the world, Ready to do it all. But God decided he needed you, So from this world you left, But you took a piece of all of us, Our hearts are what you kept.
Your seat is now empty, And it's hard not to see your face, But please always know this, No one will ever take your place.
You left without a warning, Not even saying good-bye, And I can't seem to stop, Asking the question why? Nothing will ever be the same, The halls are empty without your laughter, But I know you're in Heaven, Watching over us and looking after. I didn't see this coming, It hit me by surprise, And when you left this world, A small part of me died. Your smile could brighten anyone's day, No matter what they were going through, And I know everyday for the rest of my life, I'll be missing you.
-it would seem that losing you Billy would bring some of us to an understanding of so many things that has become obvious some haven't. we all make mistakes, right? but..isn't there an extent as to how far we fall into things? instead of honoring your memory..those who claim to miss you so much use that pain and put it into things that led you to where you are now..is that what they want? are you proud of that? i turned to so much after you died, but there came a point when i woke up and realized that the things i was doing weren't benefiting me AT ALL..so i'm wondering when others will realize that..I love you Billy, and I miss you more every day that you aren't able to be here with us.
I miss you so much / Dad
Billy i have been gone for too long and miss and need my Family more than ever as they need me. So many others visit you and do and say the nicest things and i can visit these sites for hours but can never really find the right words to tell them I feel the hurt they do and coomfort them as they do me. You would think that after 2 long years I would come to so kind of peace but Iguess i am not letting it happen. I try but it just wont come to me . Icry like a little kid and feel foolish but i cant stop. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! Close